repent & be baptised .

wow.
pretty sure last night was the best night of my life. i've been saying that alot lately 'cause it just keeps getting better. but lastnight, flip.
they aint got nothing on baptism
i honestly feel like a whole new person

new :
faith
confidence
love
passion
outlook
fire.

now i'm pumped to see my family & highschool changed. and i know that god is in the midst of using me to do so. goooood.


" there is no fear in love. but perfect love casts out all fear" - 1 john 4:18


at first i was really nervous. like about to puke nervous. had hardout butterflies. but it totally wasn't even scary, it was probably - apart from getting god in my life - the best decision i have ever made. when they dunk you its like you come up a whole new person, you leave your past behind in the water, and feel empty once again - a good empty. an empty that has gone to the next level in god , and is ready to be filled up with him once more.

just let go , just let god.
so i get come up and wonder why i'm not crying, but then realise i was way too happy to cry. it was the best feeling in the world, i cannot even describe. first person i see, is emma, bawling her eyes out. hehe that made me happy. got prayed for, alot. the presence of god was so strong.

wow.

lifechange.

camp kinda changed my life.

god got personal with me and messed me up. it kinda hurt a little but it was for the best and i feel so much better now.

so many people surrendering their lives and their hurt. it was beautiful.

i can now finally move forward and let my past go.

nothing will stop me, god's got my back.

he told me,

"it doesn't matter what you've been through, i am your father and i will never let you down. i am always right beside you and i am so proud of you. you are my daughter, my princess, my treasure, and i love you. trust in me."

but that's the thing,

he trusts in me more than i trust in myself.
so now he's placed me in a situation where he's testing my faith,
i've asked for opportunities to make a difference in my family & highschool,
and now that he's given me them,
i'm scared.

i can do all things through christ who strengthens me
- philippians 4:13

c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e-s-o-n-g-song.

let your mess become your message ; and your test become your testimony.

i am called for even greater ;
and that is what i will do.

i'm ready .

i don't really know where i am going ; but i know it's far.